Saturday, August 18, 2007

I am an educated Fool.

I hate myself for what I have become.

After 18 years of formal education, I have reached no where. Achieved nothing. The myth has broken. The silence has spoken. I have been living in a closed room. The doors have opened and I find myself left behind... far behind the world. I see no space for me. I'd rather go back to my room than going and fighting for space in a place that is so different from my dreams.. so close to reality.

I have lived in the cultural diversity of India. I have learned the differences. I love to introspect. I love to study human behaviour, the very minute differences that differentiate people. I realize the troughs and crests of any relationship. I know what keeps them going and what separates. I believed I could walk through any valley. What I dreamt turns out be a nightmare.

Jealousy has taken over humbleness. It was something that was buried long long years ago or probably it never prevailed in me. Now, it suddenly spurts out of nowhere. insidious jokes, subtle humor also hurts. I take the very obvious things otherwise. And it happens regularly. I realize that for any relationship to flourish, it needs space to flex muscles. It needs freedom. Taut strings always snap. and broken knees are always easier to mend than broken hearts.

I think my education has taken me nowhere. I still am an orthodox, conservative, backward and psychic .

I think I am an educated fool.

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

तू तेरा ़़देख


Smoker's Pride Neighbors Deride
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NOTE : Not written by me. Don't even know the original source


Cigarette in my hand...I feel like a man...
It gives me the confidence...that "I can"...

You don't agree...?? wait till I show you...
Its importance - then you won't argue...

I need it as the morning rays fall on the pane...
So that the nature's call is not a pain...

I need it with my breakfast toast...
To supply me the vitamins I need the most...

I need it when I enter my work-place...
To give me the energy to match the pace...

I need it after my lunch...
To increase the digestion after the munch...

I need it in my coffee break...
And that's just for keeping me awake...

I need it with my evening snacks...
To lift my verve when it sags...

I need it when I leave for the day...
to relax after the tortuous play...

I need it when I move around with friends...
to get the "kick" and feel the trends...

I need it after my dinner...
To adieu my day as a winner.

On my way to glory...

I overlook the statutory warning written on the
pack...
For my valour - I should be given a pat on my back.

I feed gallons of smoke to my neighbour...
Can anyone else boast of such a favour ??

An apple a day keeps the doctors away...
The doctors then,won't have any say.
I keep the doctors busy n working...
The apple would have left them sulking.

I contribute heavily in the government's revenues...
which help them venture the different avenues...

And you want me to quit smoking ??
I am sure you must be joking.

I am happy the way I am.
I'm no saint up above the hills.
And if at all I decide to quit...
What'll happen to the company called WILLS ??



Warning: smoking is injurious to health..